May 07, 2008

Week 4

Dear Pepper(s),

Hi there. Technically you are two weeks old, but in the crazy way we count pregnancy - well, we're gonna add a couple weeks and call it four weeks. So, you have already doubled your age. Kind of nifty, huh?

According to the books, you are being really productive right now: building your placenta, your umbilical cord, your spinal cord, and next week you'll be starting on your digestive tract. Wow. I am exhausted just thinking about it. You must take after your father in this area. Which is good, because if you took after me you'd just wait to develop everything until the week before you were born. You'd be pulling lots of all-nighters, and that is really hard when you haven't been introduced to coffee yet.

I still am having a hard time believing you are really here. Here. Inside me. Wow. I have been thinking of you, praying for you, and waiting for you - for a really really long time.

There is so much I want to tell you. So much I cannot wait to share with you. Like how I never knew just how much I wanted to be a mother until I met your dad. Loving him and being loved by him grew this intense desire within me to bring you here, into this love. It sounds cheesy, I know. And when you are 16 you are so gonna vomit when you are reminded that I wrote this. But I hope you know that you are growing in the belly of a mama who is really really in love with your daddy - and I hope that the love we share makes you feel secure, safe, and free. And I hope you will always feel this love, and that it will comfort you and carry you through this world.

So that is my blessing for you this week: you are loved, you are created in love, and you will be loved your whole life through if we have anything to say about it. So, just relax, grow, and make yourself at home.

We have a very exciting adventure ahead of us.

With all my love,


nancy said...

OMG!! Congrats!!! Look at you - one big IVF and you are pregnant! Yay!! (this was your first, right?)

Lucky you and lucky babies for getting you as a mommy. Yay!!!


beautycourage said...

Just logged on and saw your news for the first time.... congratulations!!!!

Lori said...

You are one sweet pepper.

Kidlicious said...

What a wonderful, wonderful post. I read somewhere that the greatest gift we can give our children is the love of our spouses.

Congrats! And be gentle on yourself about the can/can't have while your pregnant. I was told blue cheese was off the table and craved it during my whole pregnancy. When I got pregnant the second time, I had blue cheese and guess what - everything was totally fine!

I'm not saying that you should not listen to what many years of research has shown, just to be gentle on yourself and enjoy this amazing, amazing journey!!!


Wendy said...

welcome home, little one, welcome home!

Denise said...

I'm a blubbering, sobbing idiot.

Kim said...

I just found this. W.O.W!!

I am so completely ecstatic for you! Maybe those drugs were magical! :O)

Sharon said...

Congratulations Spicy. I too found out that I am 4 weeks yesterday. It is amazing.

I will be following you along. Well done

sara said...

Congrats on the great news!

annacyclopedia said...

Dear pepper(s),

Well, your mama made me cry again. She's really good at opening up that little piece of my heart that I didn't even know was closed, and that always makes me tear up, feeling understood and known and hopeful and peaceful. Your mama is an amazing woman, and even though, like you, I've yet to see her face, I know she is going to be the most incredible mother to you. I hope you are enjoying your time in her belly, but I know it's nothing compared to how in love with her you're going to be once you get born.

annacyclopedia said...

I tagged you on a meme...

Cibele said...

Congratulations... very exciting