On the lam....

Just a quick update....

Well, they told me it was a good sign that the cytotec caused so much cramping last night - they said that meant it was working - doing the work for me of opening up my cervix so it wouldn't be so hard to place the laminaria. And it definitely did work. The lam placement was super quick - I have had paps that were longer and it went very smoothly - I didn't feel a thing! So, that was good.

On the way home I did begin to experience some discomfort, cramping and slight nausea - and now, about 3 hours post-lam I am really starting to feel it. At this point it feels like really bad menstrual cramps and gets worse the more I move around. I took more Ibuprofen (they said that was best to take for this and that it is ok to take for today) - and we'll just wait and see. They worst part for me is feeling the pain get worse and knowing it is because of this thing inside of me that I cannot remove till tomorrow. Feels like being held hostage.

Thanks so much for all the support ladies! I did imagine you holding my hand - and I think it really helped! Thanks for being such a great support to me!

Ok - back to laying down. I have so much to do today...but it just hurts too much to be too active. I keep thinking it could be so much worse though.... so I am ok. If this gets me one step closer to becoming a mama, I will take it!

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Update:

At about 5pm the pain just went away! I could still feel some very minor cramping, and my back was a little achy - but suddenly I just felt much much better. I even got a lot of house cleaning and organizing done and even ran to Target.

This morning I was dreading the "removal" - but it wasn't too bad. (the squat position worked well for me Jen) - Gross - but not too bad at all.

One hurdle down, I feel like wonderwoman! Yay!

And it burns, burns, burns.....

It is 2am. I am awake. I am having my first official hot flash of the cycle. Jeez! I feel like I am personally responsible for global warming at this moment.

Also - I am having some serious cramping from the Cytotec I took (vaginally) to prepare for the laminaria. Ouch. Ouch. Ouch.

And I am feeling more than a little apprehensive about tomorrow's (today's really) appointment for the laminaria placement. I pride myself on having a pretty high pain tolerance - but when my Dr. had to crank open my cervix for my hysteroscopy I was in a good amount of pain for several days after. I have been warned (thanks to Jen and to my nurse, Amber) that this will be a lot worse.

Originally Mr. Spicy was supposed to come with me. But he just got back from a business trip and we have family coming into town on Thu so he really was feeling anxious about not dealing with some things at work since he's been away from the office and his team for over a week. And I was in a particularly giving and gracious mood (recognizing how much he has already been here for me in this, that he doesn't really need any added reason to stress right now, and since he is the only one working in this family at the moment - there ought to be some concessions for that) and I told him I would be fine without him. Even he was questioning me on this - but at the moment I was enjoying being all giving and strong and zen. So I assured him I would be ok without him there. What the hell? Who do I think I am? The truth is, I will probably be fine - I will have a local during the procedure, so the pain probably won't even kick in until hours later. But I am feeling a bit like a baby right now about it all and wishing I had someone to come hold my hand. Sigh. I should have thought about this sooner and called a friend. Too late now.

Ok. Well. I am going to go turn the heat off and go back to bed. Oh, the heat's not on? Nice.

Also, how do you put your head in the freezer if your freezer is on the bottom of your fridge instead of the top? Did anyone think about that when they designed those things? Ha! Probably not!