tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2289798428949870303.post2262909974615374624..comments2023-04-13T03:07:47.881-06:00Comments on Spicy Sister: Wanted: Road map from Fear to FreedomDuffyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14610560692331066766noreply@blogger.comBlogger3125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2289798428949870303.post-7099060976350367202010-06-07T19:31:26.844-06:002010-06-07T19:31:26.844-06:00Maybe it would help to practice some structured ad...Maybe it would help to practice some structured adventure. Pick one thing a week or a month, small or big, that scares you and go for it. Change your hair, change your routine, sky dive, whatever.<br /><br />I can relate to this in so many ways, I used to do much more in my younger years as well and now I live a very "safe" life. I went skydiving years ago and I'm not sure I could do it now, there is so much more to lose. Except that I remember how I felt afterwards. I was on a literal endorphin high for a week afterwards. Just remembering that feeling makes me want to do it again.<br /><br />It makes me sad that you blog less for fear of what others will think. This is your blog and if you have anywhere you can express yourself, it should be here, in your space.<br /><br />Thinking of you and hoping for more hope and less fear.Denisehttps://www.blogger.com/profile/11238040997371351013noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2289798428949870303.post-85968495234340000122010-06-07T15:47:55.501-06:002010-06-07T15:47:55.501-06:00P.S. I think it makes perfect sense that you are a...P.S. I think it makes perfect sense that you are afraid...perfect sense. And I can relate to how much more vulnerable motherhood can make you feel. I remeber just 1.5 years ago stopping in the middle of a jog and sobbing bcs I was so terrified of losing SparkleEyes. Nothing was going on--it's just that almost everyone other than C. who I had ever loved with as much passion and abandon as I love SparkleEyes with had left. It just seemed impossible that I wouldn't lose her too. And before I went on meds and started DNMS, I lived in a practical panic attack, afraid of anything hurting her. But I also know from my last 1.5 years of healing that motherhood does not mean that you must live with more fear. That's how I experienced it for a couple of years, but now I experience it as something that has allowed me more freedom, fierceness, courage, confidence, energy, and self than I have ever had before. I continue to believe that you will find freedom and healing beyond your deepest desires. Truly.Muser Gracehttps://www.blogger.com/profile/03619098935024377476noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2289798428949870303.post-369394307128495782010-06-07T15:36:52.825-06:002010-06-07T15:36:52.825-06:00Lovely post. I miss that woman too. Lots and lots ...Lovely post. I miss that woman too. Lots and lots and lots :(Muser Gracehttps://www.blogger.com/profile/03619098935024377476noreply@blogger.com